All of this has seriously messed up my blog... But in the end I could always get rid of them..
But the anger grows, and that is not healthy for a human.. Anger feeds all the negative thoughts,
feelings, out breaks of cussing for no good reason.. Known as a few other things too.lol. But its
not medical.. I don't normally hold that anger against a person.. You really have to push the wrong buttons to many times to get me that way. Even if angry in the moment for what someone has
said, theres a good chance I'm not going to hold it to you for the rest of my life :P..
Like the Uru people of the past, and the GW people of now... I will mainly forget you in the end..
Except those of which I still try to understand.. For some reason all the anger towards them stays..
Then there was the sadness, of why... Why does it end that way... Why do these people act like this.. Why am even still in this game.lol Fact the game could be fun, thats why you stay.. Even if all the wildlife won't let you to peace of mind, and free of creepy...
There are times I think not getting in with Uru online, would've been the best thing..
Then I think of some of those people I met there..
And how they were really worth fighting through all the crap to meet..
In the end.. These are the things that make it worth it.

Kitties, Coffee, and Kickass Games ;) My life... Well can't leave out the music... And I do believe the music you listen to can help you,

unless you're listening to gangster rap... People its doing nothing for you, and no you're not hot listening to it.lol..

The Mood of Music...
Europop makes me feel alive... Gives me energy.. So I listen to that all the time.. Most people hate it... But oh well.. Makes me happy..
Guess I'm living in the wrong area really! Should be in Europe somewhere chatting
with Gigi, or Gabry :P

Going to bed now! To
Daydream.. Cause dreaming of GW is getting old..
Tired of watching the chat pop up in a dream~!!
I want to dream of hanging with
the cool fake people :P Even if it can't come
true.. You know it can't come true, so it can't hurt you if you
dream it!

Forgiveness..... Is not a thing that just gets thrown around lightly.... OK? :P
It is earned the hard way, such as life.
And if asked to be forgiven... Would have to be
followed by the person you asked in the first place... Not by you finding a way to invade their space... That is harassment in the lightest of terms..

AND to keep pushing.. Is deeper... To ignore what they said, and keep pushing.. IS harassment in the HIGHEST of terms.. Not saying any names... But I want to..

I ignore him, he ignores my feeling on the subject.. AND we go back to why I put him on Ignore in the first f'ing place -.- ...
Just happy all he has is my MSN, Yahoo, and GW name.lol . That it didn't get to the point of me sending him anything to give my address away.. Then instead of telling Anet, I would have to get a hold of the Police.lol.

Not like anets doing anything yet, But I said what I had to say, and gave a name to anet this time..
Fix it.. I ask in nice way... Please fix this, so the anger I get when he whispers me EVERY f'ing day in GW... I don't get an electric volt down my spine...

You Brad... You are creepy.. And pushy.. And now I see why the others you talked about put you on ignore.. But.. Did you push around theirs too?
Kept bugging them till the game was unplayable.. Because you would ignore every word they said, asked... Told you to stop?
I told you .. You were going on ignore.. You asked me to please forgive you.. I felt bad..
THEN that night you sent me a pm in GW... Saying I forgave you.. No.. I felt bad when I read
the comment.. Then you..again.. didn't give me a chance to think, and jumped in... If I had wanted to try anything again I... I would've pmed you.. So please stop.. I've told anet of you
"getting around the ignore function thing".. and you just won't stop...
Creepy ok... Creepy.. Beyond sane now..

[Ok edit over. lol... Have at it, cause I've had enough.... ;) ]

Not that I was out much with the hummingbirds this year,
but last year I got some cute shots... And even a movie!
Though I can't show many things/movies... And I did make a new one tonight
with Harry the cat :P I'll wait to see if I really want to be in it -.-
People hearing my voice in high notes, low notes, whatever..
If different then showing ones self..
Then as I said that I had to go check, and see if I was in any of the ones
I was posting O_o
I want to post my Getaway game driving skills, but its 13kb bigger then
the Blogger says :P
But thats ok, I'll make a new one sometime, Heck
maybe even post Amplitude,
or one of the other games.. I suck at Amplitude at the moment..
Been to long, my hand rejects it now a days..
Which might bite at a few of my friends that I use to
play that with.. They have gotten older now, and don't seem to want me around as
much... Weeeeell, then again I did say nothing
to the ones mum when she asked if I could do something..
She might be angry with me! And so in that he might be angry with me.lol
In all I don't worry, but then again I just forgot I was going
to call my Friend Kyle, and haven't yet...
To my Friend Aylssa! An early Happy Birthday,
Guess I should really bring you out for a drink once you're
back... If you're not already.lol Check my E-Mail in the morning..

So this world is made of.... He he he..

Love, and Peace...


And sadly I've got a knot in my neck (the size
of a baseball) thats killing me,
after I had noticed something on my blogger that I got
rid of... Sort of ticking me off, and feeling bad at the
same time.. Yet again.. I really can't do it anymore
I'm not getting any younger, and would rather
not make myself older any faster thank you.lol

Harry is adorable, and I sound like an idiot when I'm talking to him.
The proof... Is in the movie^

Just thought of this... And its cracking me up!!!!... Whats going on really seems like a horror movie... And campy? No? :P....

*Enter "I know what you did last summer" music*

*Computer rings*...

{Name}- I know youre there lisa ***<(ever see Hannibal Lecter.. And "Hello Clarisse"... this is how this sounds in my head ok O_o.. A friend of mine had said this to me after I told them... But the truth was... I had already thought of it that way.lol)***

{Lisa}- I am here.... And I am very busy..

.... Silence...
few minutes later...

{Name}- Hello there!!

((( Rolls eyes... busy.. busy busy busy.. Not free to chat... boy o boy)))

..... Silence...
Few minutes later

{Name}- ok......

(((but I wasn't free to chat in the first place!!)))
....
Later... Computer chimes again...

{Name}- Hello There!

[Lisa] - Oh for petes...

{Name}- I knew you wouldn't answer..

.... Silence...
An hour (maybe) later
*chime.... closes eyes..*

{Name}- Hi there!!

...Silence...
'Why doesn't he stop.. I can't do this anymore..' <<

{Lisa}- I can't take your neediness anymore... I'm sorry, but I'm not your mum, and I'm
putting you on ignore <( with a couple spelling errors fixed from the real night -.-) *puts on Ignore... {Name}... Only person in ignore list, and I repeat only.. Even the bots I've put in there so they could stop Pming me aren't in there anymore.. The guy in the Alliance that was trying to use me to come hang out with my mum.. Not there.. The guy in the alliance I can't stand by times.. The Beggars, the naggers, the shit stirring people... None, only {Name}..*

*Next day... we're not talking a week later here.. No time for things to calm, cool, relax.. The very next day...*


*Chime.... I look*

{Name}- Hello there Lisa how are you

*other end... No answer.. Breathing slows down, as she slowly looks at the screen* *Scream!*

[Lisa] - No... No it can't be!!! How.. Did he find me!! OH NO!

*dial tone.. woman hangs up the connection, and runs*

[Lisa] - How did he break through! ...



There ends a "making light out of a odd status" By none other then MC Lisa! :P


Now move along, this was a joke.. Though the wordings may be the same as in real life.. I plan to go to Guild Wars now... Level Kadaj up.. only at 17, grrrr.. If only i had kept him earlier on... He would be 20, and so much stronger by now.. And hes so cool in GW ^.^ Will post as soon as I get him some better pants... Cause even though the top is not right looking for the movie one, its still the coolest GW Necro/Male top I've seen so far! Chao ;)

WTF.... Was all I could think today, when the boundaries in Guild Wars came crashing down... Put person on ignore... TOLD this person he was going on ignore... And yet.. Somehow still got a pm through to me.. *chime sound* {name} - "Hello There Lisa how are you?" .... "W.T.F" I thought...<(edited for your safety :P) Closer look.. "Wha? How..." *checks ignore part of buddies list* .... "No.. No hes still in there.. Then how.." .. *retype name back into ignore on top of the one, that was already there.... [Enter]... Ask Alliance if they would know how something like that would happen... Same Answer as always .... Dead silence :P* ... You know.. I don't know what gets to me more... A: How in the hell did he get past the guards for my Ignore :P ...... B: He just acted like he had ignored what I had said... "Hello there" indeed :P... C: That I was in Kamadan after that, and ran into him.. I fled.. Call me a wimp I don't care.. After his "I know youre there Lisa".. I just want to get away... Because now.. Its gone past annoying.... To darn right scary :S.. Why why can't I just find a nice, normal, friendly guy, that would get needy, whiny, and then not give you peace of mind, when they are acting like a jerk!!! *cough* At least the last one I ran into that was alot like this new guy... Doesn't pm me like {name} does... So I have kept him in my friends list.. The first guy is like this... He doesn't get anything either... But the difference is, hes great at giving room so.. In the end you feel like talking to him again, till it doesn't matter how hard to try to explain something, he doesn't get it... Then.. Just walk away, and talk to him, another day.. The one I ran into after him.. Was.. Morbid, and creepy... So I don't talk to him too often, but the way he would say, and do things, really reminds me of {name} in a Not-So-Good kind of way..Said he was going hunting with some people that didn't like him, and was afraid what might happen to him.. He was off line for weeks...
I worried the whole time.. Then while trying to make a "I'm really sorry, but its not my fault I ignore" sort of thing.. He said well fine I might as well just go hang myself then... I felt guilty.. But.. Thats what he wanted.. NO ONE.. And might I repeat. lol. NO ONE.. Tells you that..... Without wanting to make you feel like shit, so you have to say you're sorry, and then.. In that moment.. You'll know if its even worth it anymore.. Well its not.. And I wish he would just quit pming me... Quit finding a way around it.. And leave me alone.. He was his own worst enemy.lol. If "You" would've given me time to think without all the stupid pm's, maybe then I would've thought a way, but its too far, and too lost now..



SO. lol... There you have it, for the people that might read this, I've been typing this to get out stress, and to try to let him know, if he reads this... .... And as horrible as these last few posts have been, and how down they have been.. You don't know (or you may) How weird it is to have someone like that in your life.. Its draining :P (so yes no worries! I will be coming up with more Guild Wars pictures so we can all amuse our self!) Or a home movie.. still playing around with the new blogger.. *oooo preeeetty*

Some random pictures from Guild Wars..

Bear sized Panda in game.. Not the mini!

One of the best parts of the new GW
EN game..

Funky graphics Card thing
with the new GW EN game..

Never argue with a Wurm..

Never call a baby ulgy... Unless
they look like this O_o

Another place in EN.






Rez Rules~

Tough little Assassin.. Lilly.

Vash incog...

1. We'll start this lovely weekend off right.. I'm finally 19..... Soooo.. Bought some wine, and had a lovely night with that yesterday..
And it is true.. While "Tippy" you can't walk straight.. Through all my laughing I did try.. Doesn't work.lol
Standing doesn't work, and typing while drunk is a bad idea too.... Somehow "Dong" and "Soethin" doesn't
work in a conversation. lol..

2. Had to say a quick goodbye to someone... He wouldn't stop whispering me.. Wouldn't give me a day to think without him whispering me on Guild Wars.. Everyday I would get a pm like.. "I miss you" "Look I will try I am sorry".. Those made me go to pm him back, and start chatting... heh... Then! "but you have to understand".. eh?
*loud exploding noise* oh no you didn't... Oh yes, yes he did. lol.
I really did try to redeem my friendship with him in my mind.. Then.. He would follow it up with something stupid..
Finally I had to end it, plus.. In all I couldn't keep doing it.. Every single day there would be some terrible thing going on in his life... Every week or few weeks, about the job he lost... And last but not least... He would pm me to the point he came on... To the time he or I would leave.. And thats not horrible no, but it would be chopped up.. Every few mins up to half an hour then he would answer.. The one day it snapped, we were chatting I was laughing, and then 20 minutes later he came back, and tried to continue with a joke.. By then it wasn't funny anymore... And then the same thing happened.. And I couldn't do that anymore..
It had to end, because I was holding his stress, helping him think(by giving ideas)..
One time theres a girl he likes he tells me, I think.. *Oh good.. finally he will just think of me as a friend*
No.... No.. Nope not the way that worked out I guess.. He asks me if we can cuddle :P which disturbs me
in game.. Cause its a game.. Unless the sims, its not right to cuddle in a game..
"hugs" me infront of my friend Cats, and Kurt... Cats :P (smartie) turns his aviee away..
Not that I can blame him.. I have tried backing away when he does that, he'll follow my aviee
everywhere... But the main thing was Cats was funny for doing that, and the one time I left "that guy" alone
with Cats.. He chats his ear off asking Cats what was wrong, and why I don't answer him as quickly anymore..
Cats said then what I should have paid attention to... "I'm not his mum"... All his problems that he was telling me,
all these issues, all his "player" status.. He was looking for a mum.. He has told me that a few girls he had talked to in GW had added him to their ignor lists.. I wish I could ask them why..
Or maybe I know why now..

So before I move on kids!!
Never flirt with someone right off the bat, and get to know them more first.
Even if you like them right off the bat..:P

3. Bought Azu Manga Daioh,
Next best thing to Tri-Gun.. Not based on the same things.lol.
Tri-Gun,
Cool blond guy, in a red coat with a horrible past, trying to make things right as he goes..oh an a bounty on his head :P

Azu Manga Daioh,
Pretty much the lives of high school guys, and a 10 year old girl who gets transfered to high school because she was so smart..

4. I got a small upgrade for my computer so I can play OVERLORD~~!!..
The guys that I bought the game from were telling me to check sites make sure my computer can handle it.
All I could think was 'whatever I have the game I'll do anything to play it'... Gametap sucks.. But the games are nice, and thats where I started playing Overlord... Laggy laggy laggy... Horrible lag..
But now I can play it and its nice... I was already working on getting my green minions.. Which was a very laggy location.. As soon as I got in after my upgrade, and it was smoooooooth. Green minions [check]..
Is nice.. Anyway it was worth it I think.. Nothing to pricey though :P not working after all.

5. New music likes... Within Temptation... Songs liked - - The Fear, Mother Earth, Stand my Ground, Angels,Memories, ((few others)) Really nice, more gothic, to harder metal sounding, to soft... Very nice..

6. To end.. And nothing more :P Well... Maybe more, but I have to see what the size of the Videos I can put up on here.... And crop pictures from Guild Wars to put up here... Lots of junk!